It's just not the same

Do you ever feel like things are just truthfully better when your best friends are on your reach? Name anything, and I would bet it becomes a gazillion times easier when they're at your comfort.

Here I am, on the eve of my 21st birthday, just... crying. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for so many wonderful things in my life, for sure. But it just isn't the same without my best friends. I feel like a part of me is flat out shut, because they're not here. And I miss them so much. And it is just terrible that I don't get to celebrate my birthday with them. Goddamnit, what I would give up just for us to be together.

I have a whole lot more on my plate(or maybe it's just over-thinking) right now, and I think it's even more than I want to realize. Once I do, I just... I don't want to lose my mind again.

I don't even know how to organize my thoughts. I just really miss my best friends.