Very antithesis

So this isn't about me. It's about my best friend who needs to come back right now because I miss her so much. And it's about what I think of something in general.

I have witnessed her grow since 2009. And since her love life is going to be the point of this entry, I'm gonna cut straight to it. She has been through a lot. I've seen her cry because of boys, and when she couldn't handle it anymore, I remember the time when she told me she likes a girl. And eventually, cry. Because of a girl. Honestly, it didn't shock me. I am a very open person, if not "very" understanding. And there comes a time when you see a person you love go through so much pain, you just want her to be happy no matter how that would be achieved. And that's how I support my best friend.

I tell her when it isn't right anymore, but I always remind her that the decision will always depend on what she wants. And she follows her heart all the time, let me tell you. I'm okay with that. She's happy, I'm happy. I don't play safe just to not be the least bit liable when things get worse, I support her that way so she could learn by herself. So she could grow by herself. So she could fix her mistakes by herself. So she could stand up by herself. That's how you grow. That's how you become alive. She's gonna do those things all by herself. I'm just there to give her a hand. And sometimes, perspective.

She is the most considerate, understanding, patient, and all-things-related person I know. That's why it breaks my heart and it makes me mad that she's so messed up right now,  and her mind is cluttered, but the woman is still so fucking understanding. The woman is still putting everyone before her. My goodness, if I were her, I swear to God I am gonna lose it.

She may think she's weak, but she is the very antithesis of weak. She's allowed to be selfish once in a while, you know? But she does not let herself be selfish. And if people can't see that, they can suck it.

To my best friend, if you're reading this, I hope you're not mad. You are the strongest person I know, and I'm here to remind you that whenever you think less of yourself.

I love you.